I have actually been wanting to do this (writing of thoughts/feelings) thing for quite sometime now. I have multiple drafts saved, but felt a little anxious about the words I was saying-being open and vulnerable to you all or to anyone is not something I usually do. I like to think and have other people have this perception that I’m strong, hard working and inspiring, so sharing my heart, thoughts, and vulnerabilities made me feel like I would look weak. Anyone else feel that way? What I’ve come to understand is that it’s not weakness, it’s what makes you a stronger person and enables you to create stronger relationships.
In the first year of starting my blog I used to write about marriage, relationships, and other thoughts about life in general, then started to refrain from such posts. I thought that maybe if I focused solely on my fashion and beauty posts it would make things look “cleaner” and “within my niche” as you will. As I have started to grow relationships with you and all of those reading my blog I realized that I have a great platform to share more personal and intimate details about myself to encourage those around me and then maybe, just maybe we can walk through some of the ups and downs of life together!
One thing that’s been on my mind is this perception of me as a blogger and even other bloggers as having life “made” and “perfect”. Life is currently not all about fashion and beauty even though it appears to be-if you really want to know the ins and outs (and if i’m being open) of my life, you should probably understand that I currently work in management about 50 hours a week, then about 25 hours a week for the blog. Not too mention the cooking, cleaning, and recent packing/moving Jacob and I have been doing. Life get’s busy and not just busy, it gets overwhelming-maybe I’ll write more on that later.
As a blogger (even though I’m still new to the process) I have a lot of questions about what I do, how I’ve grown, and “will you be making this full time”. I have even had people tell me they want to start blogging just to get stuff. My mouth drops and I begin the process of informing them what I’m about to tell you. I absolutely love blogging. I’ve always loved clothes, beauty, and helping others look and feel their best. I never started a blog to get stuff, I never even helped others to get a reward out of it, I simply started writing and taking pictures of my outfits because I loved what I created. Like a blank canvas being painted and seeing the final product-it’s beautiful to me. There are perks to blogging, yes, I’m not going to lie, but it doesn’t come without
hard extremely hard work. Blogging takes dedication, passion, and creativity. It’s not about taking a photo of an outfit and sticking it out on the internet with a caption. I think about my blog posts three weeks in advance and plan for them each and everyday up until I’ve posted. I’m constantly thinking about “what’s next”, “what location will match the look”, “what will inspire my readers and followers”, and “how can I help someone with this post”-these questions run through my mind on a daily basis. If you need a creative outlet and want to blog, get your words and inspiration out there, but I would highly recommend NOT doing it because of the perks, do it because you have this unwavering passion. Let me just tell you the perks mean you have more work to do! I encourage you to do something you love whether it’s eating healthy, working out, writing, or blogging. We all need to find something that makes us smile. Even though blogging is hard work, I have a smile on my face every time I style an outfit and share it with you! I’ve been blogging for two years now (maybe less) and I’ve created my own business out of it. I have not worked myself into being full time (even though it feels full time), but maybe someday it will be something more. I don’t say that selfishly, because I understand that blogging, just like any job, consists of hard work-not too mention that you become an all-in one person: photography, marketing, writer, location scouting, creative director-not including the emails, meetings and outfit planning that’s involved. But you know what, I have a passion, and if you have a passion for something-go for it! The hard work will pay off!
** Life update: Jacob and I recently purchased our first home together. We moved north about an hour away from my family. We had to move for Jacob’s job, but we are in love with the area. Though my heart is broken to be even an hour away from my family, I know we made the right decision. We are both growing in our careers and in our love together. We had a lot of ups and downs as we entered into the world of “moving for work”. We were supposed too move to various places three other times, but we are overly joyed to have ended up where we are. I’m in the process of decorating and making the house into our home. You can bet home decor inspiration will be coming to the blog sometime in the future!
If you have questions about me, my blog, or you want me to talk/discuss about a certain topic you would like me to cover please let me know! I would also love to have feedback on today’s post!